I started writing this in my first semester in college. A bit of a learning curve for anyone familiar with that experience! Anyway, one particular November night, I was stressed out with finals prep and decided to vomit my emotions into my DAW. One particular feeling resonated strongly in my psyche at this moment: what the heck am I doing all this for, again? Where am I… going? For once, I had the title as the filename from the start…

The track eventually evolved into something more meaningful, but those were its origins, at least. I think the sentiment of not knowing what path lies ahead is a pretty common one amongst humans. Nothing in particular makes me more qualified to tackle that than anyone else. I suppose this track just represents my experience wrestling with that emotion.

The earliest iterations of this song were kinda just… loud, and I guess that’s what I was going for. Translated the fuzz in my head into fuzzy audio (from all the compression…?). Needless to say, I did not keep this style. I eventually decided it should sound good instead.

If you were wondering, the cover for this track is actually generated by an AI. It’s pretty common to see nowadays, but I generated this back in mid-2021, before it was a ‘big thing’. It was a cool piece of technology, producing strange dream-like images from just text… I was fishing for something weird out of a VQGAN-CLIP model when this turned up. It felt like being lost on another world. I loved it.